Walk Amongst The Stars

 I want to listen to Mary as we Reminisce 

Or Vibe to Alicia in the keys

Visit the Swiss and make bomb beats

Or better yet let's go see Lauren up the Hill

We can even do like Guy, let's chill

We can listen to Bruno and talk about Mars

Visit Hollywood and walk amongst the stars

Jump the Midnight train to Georgia and visit Gladys at Night

Head back to attend a Kanye Concert in the West it's supposed to be hype

Try to catch up with Taylor but you know she's Swift 

Go meet Amy at the Wine house that'll be lit!

As we ditch that tribe that sent us on a Quest

At the end of the day, it doesn't matter what we do

Let's start from the beginning

 I want to listen to Mary and reminisce with you

-Original Piece by Renee Austin

Seconds

 If I had one minute left before I took my last breath

I'd take one second to kiss your lips

Two seconds trying not to flip

Three seconds to gaze in your eye's 

Four seconds asking the Lord why

Five seconds trying to figure this thing called life out

I'd spend six seconds to squeeze in a laugh 

Seven seconds trying to convince myself the afterlife can't be that bad

Eight of those seconds I'd squeeze in a treat something nice quick and delicious to me 

Nine of those seconds sitting in silence trying not to cry                       

I'd spend the last ten seconds trying not to swear as we draw each other close knowing the end is near

Out of all those sixty seconds, there is one thing I'd never take a second to do

 And that's use any one of those seconds saying goodbye to you. 

Digestive Food For Thought ©2021

 I'm a Beat With No Rhythm

A Sea With No Reachable Depths 

A Rose With Only Thorns No Scent Or Pedals Left 

I'm A Group Of Gray Clouds With No Potential Of Rain 

A Storm With No Sound, The Sun With No Rays

I'm  A Book With No Words

A Angel But Not From Heaven, Hell Or Earth

I'm A Being Born But Not From Birth 

I'm The Universe Without Galaxies, No Space Or Time

It's Not About What I 'am 

Therefore It's Not About 

What I 'am Not 

I Just Wanted To Jot Down 

Digestive Food For Thought ©2021

Original Poem 

My Bitter Sweet Experience Of Living Through The Covid19 Pandemic

    Where did the time go?  As my youngest son started to cry somehow it took me back in time and I began thinking about how fast time had passed since the last year 2020 when Covid hit and we along with others were out scrabbling for food at any grocery store that had it available because of the food and toilet paper shortage like it was literally doomed day. My kid's school year was cut short and my mother was stuck behind doors at a nearby skilled nursing facility as our visits were now through a window and along with all that I was under more stress with talks of potential layoffs at my job. 

    Life, as I had known it quickly, changed in the blink of an eye. The world had come to a stop and so did my certainties. I was no longer sure of what I was once certain of things like shelter, food, work, or most importantly my health. Things that I figured would be available to me and my family as long as I was in control of my choices had now become jeopardized because of this virus better known as covid19. I questioned things like "would I have a job to put food on the table? Would I be able to pay rent to keep a roof over our heads or better yet would I myself contract the virus?" These were just some of the thoughts that got the best of me some nights and with the government not knowing how badly this virus would affect the economy or how long until a vaccine would be available I was left with even more uncertainties than I had before which challenged my optimism. 

                                                                               

    Then I was put in another situation aside from being potentially laid off and my kid's not knowing how long it would be before they would be able to return back to school I was informed my mother needed to be discharged from the skilled nursing facility. See in order to avoid her becoming a victim of the virus due to a strain that began breaking out inside the facility amongst the residents and my mom being high risk it benefited her to be released to a family member which left me questioning "What do I do now? Because I had so many other things going on at the time then after talking it over with my sister I made the choice to go get my mother and allow her to stay with us to avoid her becoming a victim of this potentially deadly virus. Now not only was I juggling my marriage, my two teenagers, my toddler, and my job I was now taking on the responsibility of caring for my mother full time.

        Covid19 had me up against the wall but I never caved. Matter of fact if someone told me pre covid I'd be hit with so much responsibility in such a short amount of time I would have doubted myself but post covid has brought the best out of me. I learned things about myself I never knew, found strengths I wasn't aware I possessed from a journey I never thought I'd venture on, and to think it would take a pandemic to pull those newfound qualities out of me. Needless to say, I'm so proud of myself and the women I've grown into from these experiences.

  Pre pandemic I was so naive, thinking I had everything figured out. I figured as long as I had a plan that I stuck to everything would work out fine, which I learned was far from the truth. I found that my mental foundation thanks to the pandemic had been rewired and that I no longer think how I thought pre-pandemic. I've learned that nothing in life is certain but change. I know now how very important time is because it is limited, I also know now that even if I have a plan for my life it doesn't matter because life itself has plans for me too that may derail my original plan but I had to have faith while trusting the process. This whole covid19 pandemic has been bittersweet and although I haven't covered my year experience of the coronavirus pandemic in these few sentences I have been to touch on some pretty traumatic events that occurred in my life pre and post covid that has changed my mental philosophy about myself and the way I look at this world forever. 

                                           

Scriptures I Drew Near Towards

 Mattew 6:34 " Worry not about tomorrow because tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." 

Matthew in 6:25-32 "Therefore I tell you, don't worry about your life, what you will eat, or what you will drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body not more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; They do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. yet I tell you not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and thrown in the fire, will he not much more clothe you-you of little faith? So do not worry saying ' What shall we eat?' Or what shall we drink ?' Or what shall we wear? For the pagans run after all of these things, and your Heavenly Father knows that you need them."

 Philippians 4: 6 " Do not be anxious about anything but instead pray about everything."

Proverbs 31:25 She is clothed in Strength and Dignity and laughs without fear of the future." 

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord," plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Born From Faith

Faith According To The Bible is "Believing in things you cannot see but knowing they are there." 

-Hebrew 11:1 

I was born from faith on a Sunday the 29th day of January in the mid-1980s and grew up in Compton, Cali. I was born to my mother and father one if not both whom knew I was there even without physically seeing me. I was born in the era of a gang and drug pandemic which thank God I survived but  I did not escape that era without being some sort of statistic. I grew up in and was also a part of the generation known for kids growing up without a father.  Now, don't get me wrong I still knew my father but it was never the same as having a relationship with him or being able to depend on him like I knew and depended on my mother. Nonetheless, time went on evolving me into this phenomenal woman of God I 'am today. See my parents conceived me but  according to  -Jeremiah 1:5  the "Lord knew me before I was formed in the womb."  Welcome to my blog " Born From Faith.